I'm the Worst: A Life/Health Update
As a fan of all of the multitasking, I figured it was about time I wrote a blog post explaining why I’ve been such a crappy blogger at the moment and giving a health update as several people have asked for a year-on follow up from my CFS/Fibro vlog.
So! As you might know (because I never stop going on about it. Soz not soz), I have CFS and Fibromyalgia. Basically, my body hates me and doesn’t want to function the way it should because that would be far too easy.
At the moment, I am having a crappy flare up, so things are worse than usual. This means that I feel like I have flu 24/7 and have done for weeks (and I’ve just started getting an actual cold on top of it, so I have the snot to go with it all). I can’t do a full day without some sort of a nap - I’ve become an expert at sleeping in the car to or from work and several times I’ve fallen asleep sat up in a chair. Classy. When I say I need to nap, I don’t mean “I quite fancy a nap”, I mean “I cannot function right now and need to nap for a while”. Napping everyday isn’t as fun as you would think it would be.
My memory is pretty awful when I’m like this too, which is proving a bit of a ballache. For example, I double booked myself several times this week, and I’m struggling to remember my position for various dances in panto rehearsals, which is awkward as I am part of the senior dance team.
My joints ache like a 90 year old arthritic woman and yet I'm determined to go to the gym so that’s proving a lot of… “fun”.
I went to the CFS clinic today in Liverpool and met a lovely specialist who is hoping to help fix me, so fingers crossed!
I’ve got a lot of work on at the moment which is great, but between that and my naps, plus various hospital appointments (shout out to the NHS) my poor blog has taken a backseat - I am hoping to rectify that!
A nice segway is to announce that I’m going to be starting a series about my vaginismus (should really be able to spell that without Googling it by now but, nope!). I had a few people say that they would find it interesting and useful and I like to think that I have a lighthearted way of sharing too much information that will hopefully be helpful to some people and perhaps entertaining for others. I’ve just started sex therapy (and it’s just as hilariously awkward as it sounds!) so I’m going to give it a few weeks before I start writing but that will be coming soon - Yay!
I’ve got so many blog ideas, I just need time to sit and write them all! Clearly, that is not right now as I am off for a dress rehearsal for House of The Dead which opens tomorrow! Weee!